I’m a pretty selfish person. I can be demanding and discontent and really grouchy if things don’t go my way on certain things. God showed me that yesterday morning. It wasn’t in a condemning way and I didn’t even beat myself up about it. It was wow! I need to work on this.
I had been praying and asking God to help me get over some resentment I’ve had toward my husband. See my husband’s work every year takes some of their top people up to Mackinac Island for some team building activities for two days. They stay on the island and bond and have a great time. This year they are staying in the Grand Hotel. What’s the issue you might ask? No spouses are allowed and I have to say I have been really bratty about it every single year. 🙁
OK, back to me praying about getting over this resentment. It controls me and robs me of my joy a month before and even after not to mention how I make him pay for it with my attitudes and moods. I know that’s sin and I do want to grow. So, I decided to ask God to show me what the root of this is and what I can do to change. I didn’t hear much that day but he woke me up early the next morning and during my quiet time,
He told me I was SELFISH!
In this situation with my hubby I was not loving him and not only was I not loving him but I was punishing him, He didn’t make the rules and he can’t change them so I can’t punish him.
I went on to read:
I Cor. 13:4-8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
and then the author said these words:
Love doesn’t act like a jerk. It is patient and kind and doesn’t act like it knows all the answers. ( I would add here it doesn’t act like a martyr). It isn’t rude or disrespectful and doesn’t act in a self-centered way, doesn’t fly off the handle and doesn’t allow past wounds to dictate the present situation.
I felt God asked me to send my husband off with a blessing instead of a curse. So I made these little Love cards to slip into his shorts pocket and his toiletry bag, etc. I will also pack him some of his favorite snacks and pray that God blesses him while he’s gone.
You could also use these cards to put in your kids lunchboxes for the school year coming up!
Thanks for letting me share my sometimes ugly heart with you. I look forward to loving my husband well and allowing God to chip away at my selfishness. What about you?
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